For the last two days I thought I made a major breakthrough as I didn’t feel like eating anything and felt amazing. I was full of energy and power. However, when I woke up this morning I suddenly became very weak. I needed to rest but I had to get up and go to work for the whole day. I couldn’t even do my Tibetan rites exercises, so I decided to eat breakfast – 1 apple and 1 pear. When I arrived at work I had some humus with some wheat and gluten free wafers. That filled me up and I immediately gained lots of energy. Although I haven’t eaten much, I’m still full and satisfied despite that it’s nearly bed- time.
I have promised to myself not to force this process and take it easy. I decided to listen to my body and spirit and take things easy. I believe that this gradual approach will lead me to freeing myself from the need to eat physical food.
I’ll see how I feel tomorrow and if I’ll wake up full of energy I’ll fast again. I know deep down that I don’t really need to eat but my body is still craving the physical food out of habit. My cells are re-programmed but they still remember the physical food and are asking for it out of habit. If I gradually withdraw the physical food and allow myself to take more rest I will be able to achieve my goal. It may take me a year or few months or maybe few weeks. I don’t know and I’m not in a hurry but I’m enjoying the process.
The key here is to surrender to the Divine and let go of everything on all levels – emotional, mental and physical to reach the Light.